I’m feeling stuck…again. My weight this week was exactly the same as last week. That was a little deflating but I’ll take that over having a gain. I’m going to have to be more consistent about hitting the gym and eat way more veggies and a few less carbs.
This weekend, I posted a pic of me in my Mickey Mouse leggings. Two body shots in as many weeks? I’m feeling myself! I love them and felt like I look ok in them. It’s an extremely vulnerable place to be in for me, sharing myself. I find that in my vulnerability, there is strength. Luckily, I have an amazing support system which helps when I need a bit of shoring up.
I got to visit my home town this weekend. I got to see my parents and our youngest daughter (She just turned 26 on 1/23). I miss them so much so it also makes me feel ‘full’ to see them and be around them.
I also got to see cousins and countless others I have known my entire life who’ve become ‘family’. I’m glad we have our life in the the Tri-Cities and for all the ‘framily’ (friends that are like family) we’ve gained over the past 12yrs but there’s no place like home.
Well, it only took me half of the month to catch up on life enough to complete my first blog post of the year. So much for starting the year with a consistent weekly post. Sheesh!! Anyway, let me get you all caught up on the life and times of me.
I brought in the new year with my honey and some friends and doing what I love to do…singing. We went originally to watch the show and Micah and Cat invited me up to join them on a couple of numbers. It was a blast!! Good company, good wine, good food and great memories.
As of last Friday (my weigh-in day), I am down 70lbs since this whole weight loss thing started (down 4lbs for the week). Physically, I feel fantastic. I can move around without pain and without getting winded. I had been on muscle relaxers for chronic back pain for years and I haven’t taken them since surgery day. I can climb up and down the stairs in my house without having to climb on hands and knees like a toddler. My wife and I can go on walks with the dogs. We can go out dancing and instead of just part of a song, I dance through several songs and only have to sit down because a song comes on that I don’t like. I am enjoying the new found freedom that losing weight has afforded me.
I do have to say that extreme weight loss is a blessing and a curse. It has been a mental test getting use to my body as it changes. There are parts of me that hang that didn’t use to. My skin feels different to me, my clothes fit differently. My skin is changing, my hair is changing. It’s definitely interesting getting to know myself all over again. I don’t always like how I look with or without clothes. Some days are definitely better than others but I am learning and coping as I go.
I’m learning a few things…
Working out needs to be a priority. It helps you have more effective weight loss and helps you to gain muscle while you are losing weight. I’m getting more consistent with workouts but it is still my least favorite thing to do.
It is super important to take care of yourself mentally. Make time to pray, meditate, journal and pamper yourself. All the change is a lot mentally so you do not want to neglect your self-care; whatever that looks like for you.
Get use to never eating a hot meal again. That sounds weird but I honestly have not had a hot meal since I had surgery. The reality is that you just can’t eat it fast enough. The one thing this surgery forces you to do is slow down. You have to chew more because you don’t want to swallow big chunks (even of soft food). Believe it or not, you will get use to it.
Surround yourself with positive people who want to see you succeed. They don’t have to be on a weight loss journey (although you should have a few of those people in your life). Just make sure that they are not the people who are constantly offering you all the junk food and starchy goodness. Make sure they are people who are willing to listen to the occasional rant about ill-fitting clothing and a not-so-delicious new food. Most importanly, they need to be good cheerleaders who are willing to encrourage and slap that muffin out of your hand if need be. Someone willing to go on a walk with you and your dogs or offer alternatives for getting together other than eating and drinking (crafting dates, walking dates, mani/pedi dates).
Now, we are all caught up and ready to get back to our regularly scheduled program. I will be back on Friday with my weekly weigh-in
It’s been about a month since my last post because…life. I’m still here and still doing well. I had my monthly appointment with my surgeon last Thursday and I am down -11lbs for the month. For those keeping track, I’m down -64lbs since I first began this endeavor which was just about a year ago. I am down -34lbs since my surgery (July 29th).
I’ve got a long way to go. Unlike a gastric bypass, which gives you big loss numbers right away, the adjustable gastric band is a more slow and steady process.
I’m feeling really good. I’m having toreplace some clothing items because old stuff is just too big at this point. I am training my mind to not just automatically go forthe largest size because it won’t fit because it’s too big. It feels good to be able to say that a clothing item is too big. I don’t think I’ve ever been in that space in my entire adult life. I’ve had a couple of breakdowns because I am struggling with some of my body changes. I’ve always been big but I was solid. Now, I have jiggly parts that I didn’t have before and hanging parts. It’s all a big adjustment. Overall, I’m a lot more comfortable in my skin. I have to be honest; I wouldn’t change a thing.
Non-scale victory…we went to a concert last month at the Emerald Queen Casino; Musiq Soulchild. He is one of my favorite soul/ R&B singers. Not only did I navigate through the whole casino to get to the venue. I was able to stand and dance the night away. We had an absolute blast! 6 months ago, I would have never been able to do that. I would’ve had to stop to rest several times and sat through the concert.
It has been about 3 months since my last post. I’ve had a lot going on and had to take a break. Now that I have a minute, I thought i would share where I am on the journey to my Lap-Band surgery.
Here is a recap…
In order for the insurance to consider coverage of the procedure, I had to do six, consecutive months of appointments; each month had to include at least one visit with my primary care doctor and one visit with a medical nutritionist. Then, I had a ton (only a slight exaggeration) of pre-surgery testing to get done. I had to get an upper GI, abdominal xray, abdominal ultrasound, PFT, chest xray, EKG, Echo and extensive labs. I also had to have a mental health assessment and ended up having to have a sleep study because I sleep with a CPAP machine and it had been 10yrs since my last evaluation. I had my last test on May 30th.
Now, I am playing the waiting game. I am waiting for the last portion of records to be sent to the surgeons office so they can submit to the insurance for authorization. I am an active waiter though because I call the hold outs every other day and I will until it is sent. After the insurance authorization is received, we can set a date. My plan was to be able to have the surgery this month for my 40th birthday but it looks like it’s going to be in July. Not the way I planned it but still OK. I am getting anxious though.
So, that is where we are as it pertains to the surgery. I have decided that I am going to live stream some of my pre/post surgery time and also do a few vlog entries so stay tuned…
Anyone who has followed my weight loss adventure knows that I’ve been on the Ideal Protein program. Well, it works and worked for me and for Tomi but I’ve reached a point where I need a more permanent solution. When I went to my last Ideal Protein weigh-in appointment, I saw a sign that scared me to death and that’s when I made the decision.
My plan is to have Lap Band surgery. I’ve gone to an informational seminar and have an appointment with the surgeon, Dr. Fox, for my history and physical at the end of January. It will be 6 months before I have the surgery. I have to jump through hoops for the insurance company; 6 consecutive monthly appointments with my primary care physician and a medical nutritionist. My first set of appointments is today!
I am ready for this. I’m looking forward to learning how to eat again; portion control most importantly. I’m looking forward to working out, getting fit and feeling better. The Lap Band is not a solution. It is merely a tool that I will use to help me get to where I want to be.
I’m going to blog and journal the entire process so here we go. Stay tuned…