I usually do this on the last day of the month but we were traveling and I had no service so here we are on the 1st. This has been a busy time and I have an abundance of things to be thankful for so here we go…
1.) Faith – God has kept me and continues to keep me and my family. Without faith, it would be difficult to get up everyday.
2.) Tomi – My wife is AMAZING! Since I’ve been unemployed, she has taken up the slack without any complaints. I know that having all of the financial responsibility thrust upon your shoulders can be quite the heavy load to bare but she carries it as though it ‘weighs’ nothing. I am so thankful to her and for her.
3.) Friends – There aren’t many people who can say they have friendships that have spanned two decades. I have several! My 20-yr high school reunion was awesome evidence of that.
4.) Being a granny – I’ve gotten to spend quite a bit of time with my Jaydie Bug lately. She is a pure joy! I wish I could spend more time with my California grandbabies; Desmond Jr. (Scooter), Da’Liyah and De’Zha. Perhaps we’ll plan a trip.
5.) Music – Helping me feel my feels!
6.) Reading – Being unemployed brings lots of spare time for reading. I am thankful for my nook and my library card.
7.) Nature – God definitely puts on some amazing shows and I am thankful to get to experience them.
8.) Concerts – My honey took me to see Montgomery Gentry & John Michael Montgomery at the fair. AMAZING! She’s a country music fan now.
9.) Bundles of joy – possibly being the care provider for this little one.
10.) Life – Regardless of the ups and downs, I am thankful for every day.
This has been an amazing month in so many ways. It turns out that the last day of the month would prove to be the most eventful and hurtful and confusing day that I have had in quite some time.
I got up early in the morning and prepared for work, packed up my lunch and headed out the door for what was supposed to be my first day back after vacation. Well my boss, Sarah, met me at the door at 10 minutes till 7 a.m. and asked me to follow her to her office at which time I was informed that’s my employment was being discontinued and if I didn’t have any questions for her then I needed to go collect my things and leave.
I was angry, hurt and confused but I went and started collecting my pictures from my desk. I cried as I was doing so because the pictures brought back memories of friendships that had been forged and memories that we’ve created and I felt so sad.
I took a day to wallow but the whole point of this exercise was to be able to find the blessing. I am blessed to have a supportive and understanding wife who said not to worry about trying to find a job. I am blessed to live in a state that recognizes the marriage between my wife and I which allows me to be able to still have health insurance in spite of the fact that I am now unemployed. Thank you Jesus! I am blessed to have come out of this situation with people that I can truly call friends and who I know will remain in contact with me though we are no longer coworkers. More than anything, I am blessed to still be me.
Here I am, looking at 40, and going through a time of trial and change in my life. I was let go from a job I had for more than six years; a job I loved. I have been without medical benefits since May 1st and though I have a new job, my benefits won’t kick in until August 1st. Being without medical worries me because I take 8 pills, an inhaler and a nasal spray everyday.
We are in the midst of car troubles and home improvement projects and the bills keep coming. We can live on what Tomi makes, no problem, but things are definitely more comfortable with two incomes. I have a lot going on right now and it would be so easy to just give up but I believe that there is a blessing on the other side of this time of going through.
There is a song that I sing when I am having a particularly hard day that keeps me going…I feel like going on. I feel like going on. Though trials come, on every hand, I feel like going on. I feel like pressing my way. I feel like pressing my way. Though trials come, from day to day, I feel like pressing my way.
It has been a little while since I posted. I have to admit that I just haven’t felt like it. I have been having quite a time lately. I recently lost my job which hit me pretty hard. I can’t say that my job defined me but I really loved what I did and I loved the people that I worked with so to not have that anynore is a difficult thing.
Also, I fell off on my eating plan. I have been a bit lax with everything as I sort out my new role in life and for me, the way I eat is definitely affected by the way that I feel. It’s sad but true. I sm proudf to say that I am getting back on track with it though. I have my weigh-in on Wednesday to dee where I a currently; i haven’t weighed in three weeks.I find that knowing where I am helps me to know where I need to go.
My goal is to get myself back into a routine; getting up, showered and dressed even if I don’t have anywhere to be, and keeping myself busy. I am catching up on some reading, working on some projects around the house and my DVR has never been so clear. Most importantly, I am working to maintain my positivity through it all.
Tomi has been extremely supportive through all of this madness. It helps to know that she is always in my corner. Now, all I can do is pray and trust that God will make sure that things turn out the way that they are supposed to.