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A Month Of Blessings – Day 30

This has been an amazing month in so many ways. It turns out that the last day of the month would prove to be the most eventful and hurtful and confusing day that I have had in quite some time.
I got up early in the morning and prepared for work, packed up my lunch and headed out the door for what was supposed to be my first day back after vacation. Well my boss, Sarah, met me at the door at 10 minutes till 7 a.m. and asked me to follow her to her office at which time I was informed that’s my employment was being discontinued and if I didn’t have any questions for her then I needed to go collect my things and leave.
I was angry, hurt and confused but I went and started collecting my pictures from my desk. I cried as I was doing so because the pictures brought back memories of friendships that had been forged and memories that we’ve created and I felt so sad.
I took a day to wallow but the whole point of this exercise was to be able to find the blessing. I am blessed to have a supportive and understanding wife who said not to worry about trying to find a job. I am blessed to live in a state that recognizes the marriage between my wife and I which allows me to be able to still have health insurance in spite of the fact that I am now unemployed. Thank you Jesus! I am blessed to have come out of this situation with people that I can truly call friends and who I know will remain in contact with me though we are no longer coworkers. More than anything, I am blessed to still be me.

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A Trying State Of Affairs…(A Moment Of Transparency)

Here I am, looking at 40, and going through a time of trial and change in my life. I was let go from a job I had for more than six years; a job I loved. I have been without medical benefits since May 1st and though I have a new job, my benefits won’t kick in until August 1st. Being without medical worries me because I take 8 pills, an inhaler and a nasal spray everyday.
We are in the midst of car troubles and home improvement projects and the bills keep coming. We can live on what Tomi makes, no problem, but things are definitely more comfortable with two incomes. I have a lot going on right now and it would be so easy to just give up but I believe that there is a blessing on the other side of this time of going through.
There is a song that I sing when I am having a particularly hard day that keeps me going…I feel like going on. I feel like going on. Though trials come, on every hand, I feel like going on. I feel like pressing my way. I feel like pressing my way. Though trials come, from day to day, I feel like pressing my way.

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