The other day, I let my daughter take my picture. They were full length pics which I hate. Most days, I feel uncomfortable in my skin so when I look at pictures, all I can see are the imperfections. My daughter is a good hype-woman and one of my biggest cheerleaders so I let her take the pic and I actually felt cute. I decided to share and talk about extreme weight loss highs and lows from my perspective.
I used to weigh 226.796kg (500lbs). Here I am 150lbs down. I realize that is quite an accomplishment; it’s the smallest I’ve been in about 15yrs. You know what I see when I look at this picture? 70+lbs of loose skin in my belly, thighs and arms. That was one thing I didn’t know to expect with extreme weight loss; some days it bothers me more than others but I’m always aware of it and it makes me more self-conscious than when I was heavier. I am not a fan of the jiggly bits I have now that were solid when I was heavier.
Here is another picture my daughter took…
I have always been curvy and now that I am smaller, I do notice that my waist is more pronounced and my butt and hips are more shapely. My thighs are super jiggly from the excess skin but it is what it is. I know that will change as I continue with my cardio and strength training.
I notice that my face is slimmer as well as my neck. What is most important is that I feel better; not getting short of breath walking from one room to the next, little to no joint pain and just an overall feeling good. I’m definitely not where I want to be but I wouldn’t change a thing about my journey.
I did it! I picked a dress! It’s absolutely gorgeous and totally me; a little bit of class & elegance and a whole lotta sexy. (wink). I tried on a total of four dresses in my search for the perfect one. I am glad that it didn’t turn into a long, drawn out ordeal because getting in out of those things is a lot of work. By the end of things, both the attendant and I were sweating and breathing hard. The only thing that would have made the experience better would have been to have my mother there with us. Having her there to see me walk down the aisle will have to suffice. The best part of the experience was that in getting measured for the dress, I realized that I am down 2 dress sizes…on top. The tush is still not budging but I am cool with my weight loss progress.
We had engagement photos taken and they turned out great so I will be completing my save-the-dates and sending them out in the next week or so. I am still trying to figure out invitation wording and figuring out when I am gonna get those mailed out.
I have to admit that I am starting to feel a little bit of pressure now. We still haven’t chosen a dress for my Maid Of Honor and we still have to figure out what Tomi and the rest of the bridal party are going to wear. I still have to meet with the officiant to discuss the details of the ceremony, I have to meet with the DJ to discuss the playlist and I have to get with the venue to discuss the seating layout for the reception. I wish that I could clone myself for the next few months. I know that I will get everything done, I work well under pressure, but I am more than a little stressed.