The other day, I let my daughter take my picture. They were full length pics which I hate. Most days, I feel uncomfortable in my skin so when I look at pictures, all I can see are the imperfections. My daughter is a good hype-woman and one of my biggest cheerleaders so I let her take the pic and I actually felt cute. I decided to share and talk about extreme weight loss highs and lows from my perspective.
I used to weigh 226.796kg (500lbs). Here I am 150lbs down. I realize that is quite an accomplishment; it’s the smallest I’ve been in about 15yrs. You know what I see when I look at this picture? 70+lbs of loose skin in my belly, thighs and arms. That was one thing I didn’t know to expect with extreme weight loss; some days it bothers me more than others but I’m always aware of it and it makes me more self-conscious than when I was heavier. I am not a fan of the jiggly bits I have now that were solid when I was heavier.
Here is another picture my daughter took…
I have always been curvy and now that I am smaller, I do notice that my waist is more pronounced and my butt and hips are more shapely. My thighs are super jiggly from the excess skin but it is what it is. I know that will change as I continue with my cardio and strength training.
I notice that my face is slimmer as well as my neck. What is most important is that I feel better; not getting short of breath walking from one room to the next, little to no joint pain and just an overall feeling good. I’m definitely not where I want to be but I wouldn’t change a thing about my journey.
Well, after a weekend of grazing on ‘whole’ foods, I gained a pound. I am back on track though so next week should be back to my normal loss ration of about 3lbs. We were out of town for the weekend and had to eat out quite a bit and our options weren’t always the best.
The one thing that I appreciate about where I am mentally with doing Ideal Protein this time is that I can recognize where I went wrong and because I was mentally ready this time, a small derail doesn’t cause me to go completely off track.
Last night I went to Zumba! It was hard and tiring and painful and amazing! I will be going back next week. I have never sweated so much in my life!
I am feeling really proud of myself because there were a few obstacles that tried to keep me from going. The first of which is that I was tired and sore from my workout on the previous day. The more pressing one was that I had absolutely no gas in my car. I was very tempted to just skip it but instead I changed into my work clothes, scrounged up $5 in change from around the house and barely made it to the gas station down the street to put gas in the car.
I was/am a woman determined to not only be super fine for my wedding and honeymoon, but also to live a better life for the rest of my life. The best part is that Tomi, my honey, is coming on the journey with me.
I am definitely falling in love with my new, healthy life.