It’s gonna be short and sweet this week. I gained 3 pounds. I was a bit upset about that but it is what it is. It’s my cycle week and on weigh day, I was on day 3- 4. I’m bloated and retaining water and emotional. That’s all I have to say about that.
So, life has been happening and I have been crazy busy with living it. Unfortunately, my consistency with blogging has suffered but I am here to get you all caught up.
I got a fill about a month ago and then ended up at the hospital the next day because my band had been over-filled and I couldn’t ingest anything; not even liquids and barely air. That was a bit scary. I was afraid to eat for the next few days and sustained myself on protein shakes and soft foods. I got back to a regular diet but didn’t have nearly the loss that I usually do after a fill. I was OK with it though because I was fearful about getting any fluid put back in. When I went for my fill for the month (Tues 5/2), I managed to lose -3lbs for the month which isn’t as much as the 7-11lbs I should have lost but was more than I had expected so I was good. I was super nervous about it but I got my fill. I took it easy and went back to my liquid prep diet for a couple of days and things seems to be alright this time. I did my weigh-in on Friday, as usual and was down by -10lbs from the previous week. Woohoo!!!
What else is new? Tomi and I took an impromptu trip to the Oregon coast (Newport, OR) last weekend to see her cousin who is currently stationed there. Her cousin Ava works for NOAA and is a Crew Chief for them. They haven’t seen one another for over 40yrs. It was a short visit but it was fun playing catch up. We’re planning a trip to Mobile, AL to see Ava and even more family sometime during the holidays.
What else is new? We’ve started house hunting. When we came here originally, our plan was to be here temporarily. Here we are 12yrs later; it’s time to put down some roots. We got pre-qualified for a home loan and our realtor has been on the hunt ever since. It is definitely a seller’s market right now. Houses are sold almost as quickly as they are listed. So much so that we have only gotten to look at two houses. The first one we looked at was nice. It was built in the 40s and definitely needed some work but it was a good house. Our realtor had us look at another home yesterday evening and we like it so much that we withdrew our offer on the first house and put an offer on this one. It’s smaller than what we wanted and it will need a little TLC as well but I fell in love as soon as I walked in the door. If all goes according to plan (God’s and ours) we will be homeowners by the time our birthday’s roll around at the end of June. That will be an amazing birthday present!!
Otherwise, we have just been working and living. I will get with you guys after weigh-in on Friday and I will try to do better with being consistent (y’all pray for me on that one)
I am down -.2lbs this week!! Yes, you read that right. I am going to celebrate it because it is my ‘cycle’ week and I am a bloated, emotional mess and I need a reason to celebrate. In all seriousness, I usually gain 3-5lbs during my lady time to fact that I had any loss at all makes me want to shout from the mountain tops.
For those of you keeping track, it is day 5 of my beverage cleanse. I have not had any caffeine withdrawal headaches like I thought I would so that’s a plus. One thing that this is helping me realize is that I really like coffee…and wine. Also, I miss how comforting it is to have a warm tasty beverage when you’re not feeling well or when you want to relax at the end of a long day. 5 more days to go and then I will give the run-down of my whole experience.
This past Thursday, I had my monthly appointment with Dr. Fox. I am down 7lbs for the month. I opted not to get a ‘fill’ because I seem to be doing well. He gave me a prescription for phentermine. It will help with my appetite thereby boosting my weight loss numbers and give me more energy. I did my regular Friday weigh-in and found I was down 3lbs for the week. That made me happy because I had no weight loss the previous week.
The energy boost will come in handy because I will be off caffeine, at least for the next 10 days. I read an article yesterday on MindBodyGreen by a woman who drank only water for 10 days. A beverage cleanse; it is effectively a tastebud cleanse. She said, she experienced food and non-water beverages differently after the cleanse. Plus, there were skin and body benefits. I love a good challenge and I can definitely stand to drink more water. I start tomorrow. Cheers!
Last week, I took on the challenge of not complaining; about anything. Some days were definitely easier than others but I made it. It took a concentrated effort in some cases and made for what seemed to be a longer week than usual.
I’m going to do it again this week. We’ll see how it goes.
I’m feeling stuck…again. My weight this week was exactly the same as last week. That was a little deflating but I’ll take that over having a gain. I’m going to have to be more consistent about hitting the gym and eat way more veggies and a few less carbs.
This weekend, I posted a pic of me in my Mickey Mouse leggings. Two body shots in as many weeks? I’m feeling myself! I love them and felt like I look ok in them. It’s an extremely vulnerable place to be in for me, sharing myself. I find that in my vulnerability, there is strength. Luckily, I have an amazing support system which helps when I need a bit of shoring up.
I got to visit my home town this weekend. I got to see my parents and our youngest daughter (She just turned 26 on 1/23). I miss them so much so it also makes me feel ‘full’ to see them and be around them.
I also got to see cousins and countless others I have known my entire life who’ve become ‘family’. I’m glad we have our life in the the Tri-Cities and for all the ‘framily’ (friends that are like family) we’ve gained over the past 12yrs but there’s no place like home.
I have to admit that yesterday morning, I was feeling some kind of way after climbing on the scale. I did not have any weight loss this week. I mean, I was sad and wanted to go climb back in my bed.
Then, I gave myself a swift kick in the butt (mentally) and decided to focus on non-scale victories. I have lost 70lbs!! and while I didn’t have any weight loss this week, I also did not have any weight gain. Not even an ounce. I managed to shake it off. I put on my Miss Piggy t-shirt (because she’s fab and I am fab) and some cute jeans and a cute hat and came to work. Did I mention that the T-shirt is 6 sizes smaller than it would’ve been 6 months ago? Oh, and the jeans are 4 sizes smaller? I had my co-worker take a full-body pic (which I hate) so I could look at myself.I can see some differences.
This has been a really hard couple of weeks for me. The weather here has been less than desirable with 23 inches of snow and then a freak ice storem that left it so that people were able to ice skate in the streets. I have barely been able to get to work and after work, all I want to do is go home.
My plan for this week is to take my butt to the gym whether I feel like it or not. Getting active consistently is the one piece missing from my weight loss puzzle. If I can’t get to the gym then I am going to find a workout on Netflix, Hulu or YouTube and do that. It’s hard for me because I hate the idea of exercise but I am committed to changing my attitude. I’ve just got to do it. No excuses!
Well, it only took me half of the month to catch up on life enough to complete my first blog post of the year. So much for starting the year with a consistent weekly post. Sheesh!! Anyway, let me get you all caught up on the life and times of me.
I brought in the new year with my honey and some friends and doing what I love to do…singing. We went originally to watch the show and Micah and Cat invited me up to join them on a couple of numbers. It was a blast!! Good company, good wine, good food and great memories.
As of last Friday (my weigh-in day), I am down 70lbs since this whole weight loss thing started (down 4lbs for the week). Physically, I feel fantastic. I can move around without pain and without getting winded. I had been on muscle relaxers for chronic back pain for years and I haven’t taken them since surgery day. I can climb up and down the stairs in my house without having to climb on hands and knees like a toddler. My wife and I can go on walks with the dogs. We can go out dancing and instead of just part of a song, I dance through several songs and only have to sit down because a song comes on that I don’t like. I am enjoying the new found freedom that losing weight has afforded me.
I do have to say that extreme weight loss is a blessing and a curse. It has been a mental test getting use to my body as it changes. There are parts of me that hang that didn’t use to. My skin feels different to me, my clothes fit differently. My skin is changing, my hair is changing. It’s definitely interesting getting to know myself all over again. I don’t always like how I look with or without clothes. Some days are definitely better than others but I am learning and coping as I go.
I’m learning a few things…
Working out needs to be a priority. It helps you have more effective weight loss and helps you to gain muscle while you are losing weight. I’m getting more consistent with workouts but it is still my least favorite thing to do.
It is super important to take care of yourself mentally. Make time to pray, meditate, journal and pamper yourself. All the change is a lot mentally so you do not want to neglect your self-care; whatever that looks like for you.
Get use to never eating a hot meal again. That sounds weird but I honestly have not had a hot meal since I had surgery. The reality is that you just can’t eat it fast enough. The one thing this surgery forces you to do is slow down. You have to chew more because you don’t want to swallow big chunks (even of soft food). Believe it or not, you will get use to it.
Surround yourself with positive people who want to see you succeed. They don’t have to be on a weight loss journey (although you should have a few of those people in your life). Just make sure that they are not the people who are constantly offering you all the junk food and starchy goodness. Make sure they are people who are willing to listen to the occasional rant about ill-fitting clothing and a not-so-delicious new food. Most importanly, they need to be good cheerleaders who are willing to encrourage and slap that muffin out of your hand if need be. Someone willing to go on a walk with you and your dogs or offer alternatives for getting together other than eating and drinking (crafting dates, walking dates, mani/pedi dates).
Now, we are all caught up and ready to get back to our regularly scheduled program. I will be back on Friday with my weekly weigh-in
Its been 3wks since my last post!! I’ve had a lot going on with rolling out a new software system at work. I haven’t really had time for extra.
Anywhoooooo…I have been up and down over the past 3 weeks as far as my weight goes. So, one thing you should know is that when your band needs a “fill”, you can tell because you actually feel hungry and you eat more because you can. I didn’t have a fill at last month’s appointment but I should have. I’ve had a month of bad snacking and a little bit of overindulging and my numbers show it.
I am down 7lbs this week. I am down a total of 55lbs according to my scale. It seems that each scale I hit has fluctuations but are close enough. I am 1lb less than I was 3wks ago when I last posted. I’ll take that. Plus, I got a band fill this past Thursday so I should be back on track.
I’ve been hitting the gym eeeaaarrrrllllllyyyyy in the morning at 5am. My wife gets off work at 4am and we meet up there. Its hard getting up that early but I’m committed to doing the work.
I jumped on the scale this morning and I am down another -4lbs. Whoop!! Whoop!!!
Yesterday, I had my first ‘fill’ for my Lap Band. For those not in the know, the adjustable gastric band is filled with saline periodically to restrict the amount of food/beverage that the stomach pouch is able to hold. I was super nervous because I didn’t know what to expect.
First, while I was laying down, the doctor verified the position of the port using an ultrasound machine and then by touch just to verify and drew a target dot on my tummy. Then, he proceeded to take the longest needle ever known to man…about 3 inches (wink wink) and stuck that in the area and inserted it into the port. Then, I had to sit up with this giant needle sticking out of my tummy. A crazy sight to say the least. Then, I had to drink water as he pumped saline into the band to determine when it was tight enough. How is that determined? Based on how much liquid I can take in at what rate. I’ve gone from gulping down my water and protein shakes back to having to sip them like in the beginning; which is what you want. Then, I had to lay back down and then he pulled the needle out. That sensation is unlike anything I have ever experienced. The best visual I can give is imagine sticking a needle into a cork to it’s hilt…one of those dense type from a champagne bottle and then pull it out.
Also at yesterday’s appointment, we addressed my scars. I have 6 of them. I think the biggest on is about 15cm but they are all hypertrophic. Because of that, the doctor is treating them with triamcinolone. He injected it into each one of the scars in several places. It was…uncomfortable. He said with scars the size of mine, it would take about 3 treatments so I will get injections when I go back next month and then again after that.
OK, that’s all for now. I’ll be back for next weeks weigh-in.
This is the face of a woman who is down another -3.6lbs. Whoot!! Whoot!!
This was a hard week. Because I take a large dosage of iron daily and because my diet is now very high protein, constipation is an issue. I had to take a day off this week because of it but all systems are working properly again…for now.
Also, I found myself craving food this week. Let me classify that. The size of my stomach allows me to get full on about an ounce of food so I am never really hungry. In fact, I have a hard time most days getting in the required protein shakes and water. Let me give you an example…
Example 1: Long hard day at work. You want to call up your friends and meet at the local watering hole for libations and appetizers. Denied!! It’s not that I will never be able to do that again but I can’t do that now.
Example 2: Date Night!!! What used to be dinner and movie isn’t the same when you are on a liquid diet.
Example 3: Your friend/family member comes to visit after having been gone for a while. Let’s go out to eat and have some drinks. Denied!!
I could go on and on. What I’m saying when I say I ‘craved’ food is more about the mental side of this journey. So many of our social interactions center around food and beverages. It is going to be a process to learn how to be social without the part that includes shoveling food into my face indiscriminately. I will have to meet for girl talk without the high-calorie coffee drink and pastry.
It’s all a process and I am rebooting my relationship with food, with people and with life. Just taking things one day at a time.