I know! I know! I’ve been missing in action lately (about 2 months) but I’ve got a good excuse; I’ve been busy living life. Work has been CRAZY busy, my wife and I both had birthdays and I put together a stellar birthday weekend with lots of travelling, we bought a house (we signed papers last Thursday and get the keys Monday after work) and I’m helping one of our daughters with wedding planning.
I am one busy lady!!! I wanted to make sure to write on the anniversary of my surgery though.
I had my Lap Band surgery on July 29th, 2016. I was almost 500lbs. I had severe chronic back pain and sciatica, lymphedema of the legs, difficulty with movement and breathing and was always just generally uncomfortable. I didn’t get that way overnight. I definitely had an unhealthy relationship with food. I was as n emotional eater and developed an addiction; food was my drug of choice.
Fast forward 365 days…I am down -90lbs and holding. I have been at this current weight for about a month which is A-OK with me. The weight loss with the band has been slow and steady; about 2-3lbs loss per week on average. I’ve learned to have a different relationship with food for sure. Mental health counseling and medication helps me with finding healthier ways to process emotions, anxiety and depression. I’m able to eat about a shot glass amount of food at a sitting so what I choose to eat is super important; nothing too starchy or too fibrous. I also have to be cognizant of how quickly I eat; I have to make sure everything is chewed REALLY well. Because my stomach has limited space, gas or sort back up from eating too quickly can’t be expelled by a burp; I am literally unable.
This journey has been frustrating, scary and quite indelicate at times; for me and for my wife. She deserves an award. I had to learn to eat for sustenance and not allow my ‘eyes to be bigger than my stomach’; literally and figuratively. I had to learn that there are going to be things that I will never eat again and embrace that. Pancakes, waffles, bread…just a few of the things I used to love that I simply can’t have since the surgery. I also have to avoid other favorites like bananas and pineapples, asparagus and broccoli; anything too high in sugar or too stringy/fibrous. Totally worth it though. If i have the unfortunate incidence of food getting stuck on the way down or getting an air bubble trapped while eating, I get one of two results. If I’m lucky, I can stand and walk or put my arms over my head or drink a little bit of a warm beverage and coax it on through. What often happens (here’s the indelicate part) is that it gets stuck and my body forces it back out the way it came. Sounds simple right? Well, because the size of my working tummy is greatly reduced, it’s probably one of the most uncomfortable and excruciating things I’ve experienced.
Looking back would I make the decision to have the procedure again? Absolutely!! I have been able to completely discontinue 4 medications. I no longer have pain and swelling in my muscles and joints. I find that I am a lot more adventurous because I can walk and move for longer periods of time without having to rest. We’ve been on hikes and to festivals and sporting events; I’m experiencing a lot more of my life as opposed to being an observer. I’m able to buy clothes of the rack which I’ve been too big to do for years. It feels AMAZING to be able to walk into the store and try things on. Most importantly, I’m starting to have more days where I feel good in my skin. Not every day but most days and that is a good feeling.
This has been one of the most amazing years of my life!!!
I have to admit that yesterday morning, I was feeling some kind of way after climbing on the scale. I did not have any weight loss this week. I mean, I was sad and wanted to go climb back in my bed.
Then, I gave myself a swift kick in the butt (mentally) and decided to focus on non-scale victories. I have lost 70lbs!! and while I didn’t have any weight loss this week, I also did not have any weight gain. Not even an ounce. I managed to shake it off. I put on my Miss Piggy t-shirt (because she’s fab and I am fab) and some cute jeans and a cute hat and came to work. Did I mention that the T-shirt is 6 sizes smaller than it would’ve been 6 months ago? Oh, and the jeans are 4 sizes smaller? I had my co-worker take a full-body pic (which I hate) so I could look at myself.I can see some differences.
This has been a really hard couple of weeks for me. The weather here has been less than desirable with 23 inches of snow and then a freak ice storem that left it so that people were able to ice skate in the streets. I have barely been able to get to work and after work, all I want to do is go home.
My plan for this week is to take my butt to the gym whether I feel like it or not. Getting active consistently is the one piece missing from my weight loss puzzle. If I can’t get to the gym then I am going to find a workout on Netflix, Hulu or YouTube and do that. It’s hard for me because I hate the idea of exercise but I am committed to changing my attitude. I’ve just got to do it. No excuses!
So, I have to tell you that making the commitment to step on the scale 1x weekly on the same day and about the same time of day each week; no problem. Not being tempted to step on the scale every time I go to the bathroom? That’s a different story. I was strong though and waited until this morning.
Drum roll please…454.8lbs.
For those keeping track, I am down -9.6lbs since surgery day (7/29). Woohoo!!!
I had my 1-week follow-up with Dr. Fox (the surgeon) yesterday and I am doing really well. My wounds are healing beautifully. I am taking my meds as I should and am doing well with getting my nutrition. I did express to him my concern about not having enough intake. I explained that I am so concerned about nausea and vomiting from being over full that I am afraid to ‘eat’. He let me know that my concerns were valid and gave me some tips and tools for getting the protein shakes down. I am feeling good!! Next week, I should be able to start a light workout routine. I’ll probably start with walking.
I bought myself a book to get me through the day-to-day because I know this won’t always be easy. It is a book that starts on Jan 1st and ends Dec 31st. I decided that instead of starting on the first day of the year, I started yesterday; the day I received the book. There are daily action and journaling points. I want to immerse myself in this whole weight loss surgery (WLS) process. I know that I have healing to do; physically, emotionally and spiritually, as I change my relationship with food and myself as my body changes so I a taking advantage of any tools I come across.
What a crazy, busy month this has been. I am just now able to stop for a breath.
I had two of my little cousins graduate highschool this month.
At the graduation party I got to spend time with friends and family which was great. Because we live 4+ hours away, we don’t get to see family as often as we’d like.
My newest baby cousin was born.
Then, there was my wife’s birthday! She got her motorcycle endorsement for her birthday.
Then, my birthday came! I am serious when I say that I think it should be a national holiday. I look forward to it every year; the higher the number, the bigger the blessing.
There were so many birthday activities and I was so full of joy! First, my friends Mel & Lee did a birthday karaoke shindig for me a few other of my cancerian friends. Shenanigans were abundant!
We had quite a time considering it was a Thursday night.
Friday night, my honey took me to are Floetry; one of my favorite duos. It was their reunion tour and I was so here for it!
I was too excited and too into dancing and singing along to get many good pics but we had a blast!
The next day, we went on a steam train adventure with the Mt. Rainier Scenic Railway. We had a lot of fun and learned a lot about the rail and lumber history of the west aide of our state.
We had such a great weekend and a great month! I can hardly wait until next year.
Mother’s Day weekend was pretty amazing. One our granddaughters, Jayden, celebrated her golden birthday; She turned 8 on the 8th. We went to see her in a musical and then we all went out to dinner.
Then, there was our annual Mother’s Day brunch which also happened to fall on the 26th birthday of our 2nd youngest daughter, Keely. We ate, we laughed and enjoyed ourselves. It was a wonderful time as usual and I’m already looking forward to next year.