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When It’s Time To Change…

Anyone who has followed my weight loss adventure knows that I’ve been on the Ideal Protein program. Well, it works and worked for me and for Tomi but I’ve reached a point where I need a more permanent solution. When I went to my last Ideal Protein weigh-in appointment, I saw a sign that scared me to death and that’s when I made the decision.

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The sign that changed my direction in my weight loss journey

My plan is to have Lap Band surgery. I’ve gone to an informational seminar and have an appointment with the surgeon, Dr. Fox, for my history and physical at the end of January. It will be 6 months before I have the surgery. I have to jump through hoops for the insurance company; 6 consecutive monthly appointments with my primary care physician and a medical nutritionist. My first set of appointments is today!
I am ready for this. I’m looking forward to learning how to eat again; portion control most importantly. I’m looking forward to working out, getting fit and feeling better. The Lap Band is not a solution. It is merely a tool that I will use to help me get to where I want to be.
I’m going to blog and journal the entire process so here we go. Stay tuned…

Weighing In

Soooooooooooooooo…it’s been a while. Quite frankly, I’ve been too embarrassed to post. I was down 70lbs at on point. I have half-assed my way back to gaining 50 of those pounds and I’m embarrassed about that.
Being fat is delicious and easy…until it gets hard.

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It’s all good until you come up against…a chair with arms.
That pizza is delicious…until none of your close fit.
The buffet is fantastic…until you notice people watching you make your plate. Are they judging me?
My joints ache. My feet, ankles and knees have started to swell again. I’m retaining water and I waddle when I walk.
We had a long talk with my coach this week because I am feeling very discouraged.

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I’m back on track; I think. Some people do well with meal prep and planning ahead. I do better with focusing on one day at a time so that’s what I’m doing. It’s treat season so its going to be hard. Every time I’m tempted, I look at my goals and ask myself “How bad do you want it?”. So far, so good.

I Fell Off…Of Life

It’s been a while since I posted or even felt like it. Life was happening around me but at some point, I stopped participating. I don’t mean to sound dramatic like I was going to end it all or anything like that. Never that. I just stopped. I got up every day but hardly ever got dressed. I just hung around in my lounging gear (yoga pants and a T-shirt) and napped the day away. And forget personal grooming like eyebrows and shaving and makeup. Too much work. I left the house but only so my wife didn’t worry. I can’t say I was feeling bad; or feeling anything for that matter.I woke up one day and realized that I hadn’t been taking my meds or anything. I just…fell off. I gained back 20lbs of the weight I lost because I had pretty much given up on my Ideal Protein program as well. Even though I was weighing in and buying food every week. I woke up and ‘snapped’ out of the stupor I had been walking around in, dusted myself off and started the journey back to me.

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First thing I did was go get my hair done. Then, I got my eyebrows waxed and got a mani/pedi. I started working again, at a job I really like, so I’m getting up every day and even ‘putting on a face’. Sometimes I don’t just because I want to sleep longer but I do more often then not.
Next, I made appointments with my medical and mental health providers to discuss and refill my meds. Idownloaded a phone app so I could enter my meds and track when I’m supposed to take my meds.
Then, I talked with my Ideal Protein coach, set a few short term goals and came up with a plan to get back on track with my weight loss plan. I am already feeling better and I am ready for the world. I’m not deluded that this is going to be easy but I’m open to the journey so here I go.

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Weighing In

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My nemesis...

It’s Tuesday…weigh-in day. I skipped last week because I had stuff to do pertaining to our taxes. Plus, I knew it would be a bad week after playing Granny 🙂
I was up 3lbs. I wasn’t too upset though. I had a good week but I know I need to increase my water and I am days away from the beginning of my cycle so I’m bloated. I lost inches in my chest and waist but gained in my legs so they canceled each other out.
We talked with Eva today about feeling tired of the program; I’ve been on it off and on for over a year. I am ready to be done! I know what it takes to get to that point but I’ve been bullshitting as of late. No more! I’ve set a goal date of my birthday (June 27th) as my 100lb mark. I’m more than halfway there.
My motivation for the week to come is this quote from Maya Angelou.

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Its a reminder to me that this journey I’m on is going to be hard work but it is worth it. I am worth it!
The quote of the week at the clinic spoke to me as well.

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Photo-bombed by my wife. Lol!

It will remind me to keep going and take one day at a time.
This was not my best week but not my worst either. No matter what, I’ve got to keep going.

You Lose A Few…

-4.1lbs to be exact! I’m back on track and back to losing weight. I had to regroup and get my mind right. I was feeling bored and deprived and I just needed a break.
Each week when I would go for my weigh-in and show a gain, I felt embarrassed and disappointed in myself. I knew, however, that if I stopped going altogether, even for just a couple of weeks, I would never go back.
I am definitely not anywhere close to my goal but I am on my way. I’m not happy with my outer appearance but on the inside, I feel better than I have in years. Some days are harder than others but I just surround myself with affirmations and positivity and smile on the outside even if I don’t necessarily feel it at the time.
One of our granddaughters is staying with us this week and on Easter, she wanted to take a picture of her grannies. She’s always telling me that she loves my outfits and shoes, my hair and accessories. Hanging with her is good for my self esteem.

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Easter 2015

I’m very insecure about my physical appearance so I usually don’t do full body photos but I felt good sharing this one. I was surrounded by my loved ones. My wife has been my biggest cheerleader through this process and most importantly, she loves me without condition; even when I feel I am unable to love myself.

Just Keep Swimming…

“Effort only fully releases its reward after a person refuses to quit.” Napoleon Hill

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Feeling determined...

I took this selfie the other day while st my Ideal Protein weigh-in/ coaching appointment.
Its been a tough couple of weeks and my coach, Eva, and I have been working on getting me over this plateau I’ve hit. Honestly, I got a little bored. I was tired of eating the same shit! Eva explained that even though I was having gains of a few pounds (from cheating), it is important to keep sticking to the plan and keep coming to my weekly appointments. We remixed my menu a bit and got Tomi back on board and I think I am headed in the right direction again. Most importantly, no matter how tempted I was, I didn’t quit.