I have had a lot going on!! This has definitely been a time of growth, change and renewal in many areas of my life.
I quit my 9-to-5 🙃. I didn’t have a new gig in place when I made the decision to quit but one presented itself once I hit ‘send’ on the email. Though I will miss the regular interactions with some of my peeps, I know it was the best decision for my life. One very funny discovery was the amount of selfies I took at my desk over 3yrs (about 70 that I found in my phone). As a parting gift, I picked some of my faves and gave everyone a collage.
I’m putting more time, energy and resources into my side hustle; my business as a wedding officiant/singer-for-hire called Absolutely, I Do. I’m working on my webpage, social media page and a few other loose ends. I’m just doing my homework because I don’t want to put out just anything.
And finally, I’m at a point where I have the time and energy to invest in getting back to taking care of me. I haven’t been eating or exercising like I should and have gained 10lbs in the last 3 months. In order to get back on track, I’m going to reset my body by going back to the beginning and do the liquid prep diet I did prior to and just after my surgery. I’m going to start with 2 weeks and then reevaluate. I’ll get 90g of protein via my protein shakes (with greens), increase my water intake, homemade broth, herbal tea. Plus, I’ll get back to incorporating at least 30mins of cardio/day; probably by walking the dogs. It’ll be good for me and them. Tomi will be joining me for my workouts so we can both get our healthy on.
Well, it only took me half of the month to catch up on life enough to complete my first blog post of the year. So much for starting the year with a consistent weekly post. Sheesh!! Anyway, let me get you all caught up on the life and times of me.
I brought in the new year with my honey and some friends and doing what I love to do…singing. We went originally to watch the show and Micah and Cat invited me up to join them on a couple of numbers. It was a blast!! Good company, good wine, good food and great memories.
As of last Friday (my weigh-in day), I am down 70lbs since this whole weight loss thing started (down 4lbs for the week). Physically, I feel fantastic. I can move around without pain and without getting winded. I had been on muscle relaxers for chronic back pain for years and I haven’t taken them since surgery day. I can climb up and down the stairs in my house without having to climb on hands and knees like a toddler. My wife and I can go on walks with the dogs. We can go out dancing and instead of just part of a song, I dance through several songs and only have to sit down because a song comes on that I don’t like. I am enjoying the new found freedom that losing weight has afforded me.
I do have to say that extreme weight loss is a blessing and a curse. It has been a mental test getting use to my body as it changes. There are parts of me that hang that didn’t use to. My skin feels different to me, my clothes fit differently. My skin is changing, my hair is changing. It’s definitely interesting getting to know myself all over again. I don’t always like how I look with or without clothes. Some days are definitely better than others but I am learning and coping as I go.
I’m learning a few things…
Working out needs to be a priority. It helps you have more effective weight loss and helps you to gain muscle while you are losing weight. I’m getting more consistent with workouts but it is still my least favorite thing to do.
It is super important to take care of yourself mentally. Make time to pray, meditate, journal and pamper yourself. All the change is a lot mentally so you do not want to neglect your self-care; whatever that looks like for you.
Get use to never eating a hot meal again. That sounds weird but I honestly have not had a hot meal since I had surgery. The reality is that you just can’t eat it fast enough. The one thing this surgery forces you to do is slow down. You have to chew more because you don’t want to swallow big chunks (even of soft food). Believe it or not, you will get use to it.
Surround yourself with positive people who want to see you succeed. They don’t have to be on a weight loss journey (although you should have a few of those people in your life). Just make sure that they are not the people who are constantly offering you all the junk food and starchy goodness. Make sure they are people who are willing to listen to the occasional rant about ill-fitting clothing and a not-so-delicious new food. Most importanly, they need to be good cheerleaders who are willing to encrourage and slap that muffin out of your hand if need be. Someone willing to go on a walk with you and your dogs or offer alternatives for getting together other than eating and drinking (crafting dates, walking dates, mani/pedi dates).
Now, we are all caught up and ready to get back to our regularly scheduled program. I will be back on Friday with my weekly weigh-in
It’s been a while since I posted or even felt like it. Life was happening around me but at some point, I stopped participating. I don’t mean to sound dramatic like I was going to end it all or anything like that. Never that. I just stopped. I got up every day but hardly ever got dressed. I just hung around in my lounging gear (yoga pants and a T-shirt) and napped the day away. And forget personal grooming like eyebrows and shaving and makeup. Too much work. I left the house but only so my wife didn’t worry. I can’t say I was feeling bad; or feeling anything for that matter.I woke up one day and realized that I hadn’t been taking my meds or anything. I just…fell off. I gained back 20lbs of the weight I lost because I had pretty much given up on my Ideal Protein program as well. Even though I was weighing in and buying food every week. I woke up and ‘snapped’ out of the stupor I had been walking around in, dusted myself off and started the journey back to me.
First thing I did was go get my hair done. Then, I got my eyebrows waxed and got a mani/pedi. I started working again, at a job I really like, so I’m getting up every day and even ‘putting on a face’. Sometimes I don’t just because I want to sleep longer but I do more often then not.
Next, I made appointments with my medical and mental health providers to discuss and refill my meds. Idownloaded a phone app so I could enter my meds and track when I’m supposed to take my meds.
Then, I talked with my Ideal Protein coach, set a few short term goals and came up with a plan to get back on track with my weight loss plan. I am already feeling better and I am ready for the world. I’m not deluded that this is going to be easy but I’m open to the journey so here I go.
This was a very busy week! Usually, I eat the worst when I’m busy. Who has time to think about eating properly when there are so many other things on the proverbial plate? Well, it has gotten to the point where I don’t really have to think about it anymore. Tomi and I have been trying to make sure that we have healthy snacks around the house as well as healthy options for lunches and dinners. That way, no matter what we reach for when a jones hits, we’ll be making a good choice as long as we keep portion control in mind.
This weekend was the Employee Recognition Banquet for Kadlec and I was all prepared to eat horribly. Well, my plan was foiled by…bacon. I had a huge pile of mashed potatoes along with pasta. Well, the potatoes had bacon in them so as a non-meat eater, I couldn’t partake. This is a good thing because I would’ve felt so guilty afterward. The largest portion of food on my dinner plate was salad and fruit. I did eat 3 pieces of cheesecake and almost an entire bottle of wine so I got an extra workout in to ‘pay’ for that.
This week, Tomi & I have decided to work on meal planning. We will sit down on Saturday and plan out lunches & dinners for the week and then shop accordingly. We have incorporated workout planning. We are going to put our workouts on our family calendar just like all our other appointments and come up with a consequence for when there is a cancel or reschedule. I am hoping this will help me be more consistent with working out because I HATE IT!
The last change I’ve vowed to work toward is getting more sleep each night so goodnight! 4am is going to arrive quickly.
I walked A mile the other day at the gym. This may not seem like a big deal to most but for me, its monumental.
I set out to do 30 minutes of walking on the treadmill at least 3x a week. I have been sticking to that and always end up being just under a mile. Well, I decided to ignore the time and make it to a whole mile. My legs felt like limp noodles and I wasn’t sure I would make it to the car afterward but I made it and it felt AMAZING!
It is hard getting back to an active lifestyle after leading a very sedentary life for so long. Finding the motivation to get to the gym is really hard some days but I am sticking with it. I am determined to make positive changes in my life. I no longer want to be held back by the physical and mental limitations I have allowed because of my size and weight.
Working through the hard days makes the reward so much sweeter.
Last week, I ended up in the ER for asthma exacerbation and they did some labs while I was there. I got a call from my primary doctor the following day requesting I go in to the lab for an iron study. When I went in for my follow-up appointment, my doctor explained that I had severely low iron and she was ordering a 5-day course of iv iron infusion.
I go in for my first appointment which was supposed to take 3 hours from start to finish; I ended up being there for almost 6 hours. They couldn’t find a good vein to use for the iv so after three people tried 10 times to start a line (yes, I was poked at least 10x), the anesthesiologist (Dr. Underhill=Rock Star) decided to put in a subclavicular, central venous line so off to the operating room I went. Once the line was placed, which was a bit unpleasant, I had to wait for xray to come to make sure that the line was properly placed.
Finally, I got the meds started and took a nap while my trusty sidekick JaLisa sat reading or doing a crossword or whatever. I had originally intended to go by myself but I am glad she talked me into letting her go with me. Since things ended up being more involved than anticipated, it was nice to have a familiar face to look at. Plus, it would have been a little awkward having a stranger help me put my clothes back on.
A special shout to everyone in the Kennewick General Hospital (KGH) Short-Stay Unit, Operating Room & Anesthesia staff. You all were quite awesome today and I appreciate how great everyone was to my daughter & I.