I’m feeling stuck…again. My weight this week was exactly the same as last week. That was a little deflating but I’ll take that over having a gain. I’m going to have to be more consistent about hitting the gym and eat way more veggies and a few less carbs.
This weekend, I posted a pic of me in my Mickey Mouse leggings. Two body shots in as many weeks? I’m feeling myself! I love them and felt like I look ok in them. It’s an extremely vulnerable place to be in for me, sharing myself. I find that in my vulnerability, there is strength. Luckily, I have an amazing support system which helps when I need a bit of shoring up.
I got to visit my home town this weekend. I got to see my parents and our youngest daughter (She just turned 26 on 1/23). I miss them so much so it also makes me feel ‘full’ to see them and be around them.
I also got to see cousins and countless others I have known my entire life who’ve become ‘family’. I’m glad we have our life in the the Tri-Cities and for all the ‘framily’ (friends that are like family) we’ve gained over the past 12yrs but there’s no place like home.
Last week, I was down another 2lbs but this week, I was up 6lbs. I’m not sad about it. I have been having a hard time eating since I got out of the hospital. Anytime I eat anything, I get very nauseous which makes me not want to eat. I don’t seem to have an issue with fluids because I can’t get enough water but my body just seems to hate food right now. This should be a better week because I saw my doctor yesterday and she gave me something to address the nausea.
This past weekend was the 67th Annual Tacoma Golden Gloves. I have been singing the National Anthem at the matches for 10+ years now. One of the photographers took a picture that finally helped me wrap my head around how much weight I have lost. I know that my clothes are fitting differently and better but I don’t feel any different other than being less ‘solid’.
This picture brought everything into perspective and I cried when I saw it…
I feel so proud of myself. God knows this journey has not been easy; full of many ups and downs but I am staying in the race.
It’s crazy to see the differences in my body and a bit overwhelming. There are times when I feel scared and I allow that fear to steer me toward unhealthy choices (I am an emotional eater; any emotion) but I am determined to conquer and live above my fear. I know that ultimately, I will be better for it.
What a fantastic weekend! It was the weekend of the 66th Annual Golden Gloves in Tacoma. I sang the Canadian & U.S. National Anthem for both nights of the event.
I also got to see my sister, my niece & nephews and my cousin.
I also got to spend some time with my parents for their birthday weekend…Dad (Feb 27th) & Mom (Mar 2nd).
I had my first trip to IKEA. That was pure insanity! It was worse than Costco on a Saturday during Christmas. I loved the deals they had but online is the way to go with them.
We had a harrowing trip home through snow, ice and multi-vehicle accidents. It definitely got the heart racing.
Now, we are home on our bed and on our way to dream land.