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A Month Of Blessings – Day 1

My intention was to do my “10 Things” post for two months since I forgot April and May just ended. I have decided to do something different though.
I am thankful every day, all day for my life but for this month, my birthday month, I am going to post a picture each day of something I am thankful for and a blurb saying why. I have been having a hard time mentally and emotionally lately and as I near completion of another year of life, I feel like I need to remind myself how blessed I am.
Here we go…

Day 1

Tomi...my wife

I am so blessed to have this beautiful soul in my life. She is there to shore me up when I need a bit of help with bearing my life load. She makes me laugh, tells me I’m beautiful and she is my very best friend. She also has a June Birthday!

Cheaters Never Lose…Weight.

This is the face of a cheater!
This is the face of a cheater!

This weekend was my first “test” and I failed. I was in a situation where I couldn’t have any of my Ideal Protein foods or healthy veggies to snack on so I did what you are never supposed to do; I just didn’t eat. And then when I did eat, I did not make the best choices. I felt soooooo guilty!
This is also my first “time-of-the-month” since I have been on the program and the cravings I usually have (sweet & salty) but I have been able to control myself and not going on a snacking bender.
I have been so proud of myself with staying on program. I did not like the feeling that came with being a “cheater” and I definitely don’t like the 2lbs. that I gained as a result. I am back on the wagon and I have learned from my mistakes. I am definitely going to have to do some better planning when we travel to make sure that I don’t have another cheating episode.

Look At Me, I Am Changing…

A series of seemingly unrelated events came together to put me in my current frame of mind. I read an article in the New York Times by Alice Randall called Why Black Women Are Fat http://www.nytimes.com/2012/05/06/opinion/sunday/why-black-women-are-fat.html?smid=pl-share and then came across another article by the same author in the September issue of Essence magazine titled My Soul To Keep, My Weight To Lose. Then, I read another article in Essence by the Write Or Die Chick called Diary Of A Mad, Fat Chick http://www.essence.com/2012/08/31/write-or-die-chick-diary-mad-fat-chick. Then, I came across a book by Alice Randall called Ada’s Rules and I knew that God was trying to tell me something; something that I have been telling myself for years. It is time to make a change!

Ok, wait! Let me start at the beginning. I don’t know when I started avoiding mirrors that show me anything other than my face but I do. I actually can’t recall when I stopped liking what I saw looking back at me but somewhere in my life, it happened. Tomi and I were out shopping and I walked past a full length mirror and made the mistake of looking into it. I cried. I made the decision that day that I was going to make a change. I made some small changes in the way I was eating, slowly, over the course of a month and saw a little weight loss. Then, the next time I weighed myself, I was 10lbs heavier than my original weight. I am heavier than I have ever been in my life!

After God put all of these different reading materials in my path, I know it wan’t anyone but God, I knew that only I could change what I do not like to see when I look in the mirror. So, I continue to make changes in the way that I eat; healthy food and healthy snacks. Also, I have started working out. Since I come from a primarily sedentary lifestyle, I knew that I would have to take baby steps in order to start and stick with any type of exercise plan. I’ve decided to start by walking my way to a healthier me. I started this past Tuesday and my plan is to go and walk for 30mins everyday and I have been sticking to it. As my endurance increases, so will my exercise.

Although, I feel tired and achy in my body, I feel good on the inside. I am so proud of myself for my motivation and my dedication to a healthier me. That feeling is what will keep me moving forward. Now, I am looking forward to things like making appointments to try on wedding gowns (I’m planning my wedding) and being able to purchase clothes off the rack more easily. For the first time in a long time, I feel hopeful and hopeful feels pretty damn good.

Love From My Biggest Fan

As of January 27th, 2011, I am an Independent Beauty Consultant with Mary Kay. I had sold Tomi enough on the idea to give me the money for my starter kit but other than that, I thought she couldn’t be bothered.
Well, one night I go out to my car after work and I see an envelope on my dash. The first thing I did is back up from the car and survey the area all the while who had been in my truck. Once I was sure things were safe, I got in and opened the envelope. In it was a card telling me how fabulous I am (which I never get tired of hearing). There was a note written in it from Tomi telling me how proud she was of me for stepping out of my comfort zone and starting my Mary Kay business.
She has been a great sounding board, brainstorming partner, walking advertisement and a really good sport about letting me scrub and rub stuff on her face. I appreciate having her support as I work to build my business.