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Birthday Behavior: Full-Figured and Feeling Myself…Finally

For those not in the know, June is my birthday month. I’ve always loved celebrating my birthday, being with those that I love and who love me back and most importantly, reflecting on the year I had and focusing on the year to come.

Well, this year feels different. I have been/ am working on me; spiritually, mentally, physically & emotionally. I have been on a long journey with regards to my physical health. I have been more focused and putting in the work with diet and exercise and I am feeling myself a little bit 😉. I have worked on loving myself through every phase of my journey which is not always easy but, I’ve found, very necessary in my process and progress. I am feeling more confident, but not the fake confidence of my past. You know, the feigned exuberance often used as a defense mechanism to keep people from trying to dig too deep? Just me? Well, I feel good now, better than I’ve felt in years and my shine…it’s like I can’t turn it down. I gotta shine no matter what!!

I’m not where I want to be but I’m definitely on my way. Do I hate working out? Absolutely!! But I love the way I feel afterward. Some days, it’s hard to love what I see in the mirror as my body changes. But, even on the difficult days, I look at myself everyday in a full-length mirror and I tell the woman that I see there that I love her and that though the journey is hard, she is worthy and worth it. I took a picture of myself on our recent trip to Vegas and I struggled with whether to share it. When I first took it, I loved it but then slowly started to pick myself apart. Well, FUNK THAT!! I can look at myself and see my blemishes as battle scars; that means I have survived many battles and I have so many things to be thankful for. I can look at my body, see the imperfections and find beauty in the fact that God allowed me to carry a life in my womb. I’m thankful for that. I am strong and all my parts are in good, working order. I am thankful for that. I have soundness of mind (most days). I am thankful for that. My spiritual foundation is strong and continually nurtured and growing. I am thankful for that. Most importantly, I feel all the feels about all the things. I no longer try to numb my feelings with food, drink and other forms of camouflage. I am thankful for that.

So, as my birthday approaches, I revel in all that I have learned and continue to discover about myself. Here I stand in all of my glory ready to shine, no matter what.

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Weighing-In

I’m down another 5lbs this week. Yes! I’m feeling really good. I promised to be transparent when it came to my weight loss journey. I recently purchased a dress to wear to my wife’s company Christmas party.
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I got a size 28 and it is big on me. Except where the ‘girls’ and the badonkadonk are concerned. I’ve always been…blessed in those areas. The last dress I bought, which was my wedding dress was a size 32.

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I am feeling very proud of how far I’ve come and looking forward to more success in the future.

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Weekly Weigh-In

I am down another 3lbs and 3in this week!! I have lost 21.6lbs since January 19th. I have to tell you that it feels really good to be getting some results. I have tried and failed for years to lose weight and as many of you know, the dieting yo-yo can be a very discouraging thing. It makes me feel so good to have positive results week after week as long as I continue to do what I am supposed to do. 

i am not going to rush right out and start purchasing my new wardrobe but it is wonderful to have the clothes I have now fitting better and better each week. I am truly starting to feel good in my skin.

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A special shout out to my wife, Tomi, for loving me no matter what size I am. Oh, and for being able to tell me no.

 

 

I’m Feeling High Because I’m Still Down!

After two weeks off of my eating plan, I went in for my Ideal Protein weigh-in. The bad news is that.I gained 8.8 lbs. The good news is that I am still down 15lbs! YES! I am riding high on that fact. I had been eating horribly so I fully expected to gain all the weight back.
I am feeling renewed and encouraged and ready to kick weight loss back into gear. I have a great support system and I feel renewed in my endeavor to lose this weight.

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