It’s been two weeks and I have lost 2lbs. I’ve been having a bit of a hard time with my eating; lots of eating out. I feel like I’ve gotten back on track and I managed not to gain any weight so I’m happy. My diet is back to mostly protein and vegetables, low fat and limited carbs.
My beverage cleanse? I lasted sick days. I had developed a bad cold and had a hot toddy or 3. I think I might try it again so that I can do the whole 10 days but I made it further than I thought I would. Coffee is life!!
I’m interested in seeing what this next week brings as far as weight loss goes. I started taking my phentermine at the end of last week. I’m interested in seeing what effect it has; any noticeable difference.
I jumped on the scale this morning and I am down another -4lbs. Whoop!! Whoop!!!
Yesterday, I had my first ‘fill’ for my Lap Band. For those not in the know, the adjustable gastric band is filled with saline periodically to restrict the amount of food/beverage that the stomach pouch is able to hold. I was super nervous because I didn’t know what to expect.
First, while I was laying down, the doctor verified the position of the port using an ultrasound machine and then by touch just to verify and drew a target dot on my tummy. Then, he proceeded to take the longest needle ever known to man…about 3 inches (wink wink) and stuck that in the area and inserted it into the port. Then, I had to sit up with this giant needle sticking out of my tummy. A crazy sight to say the least. Then, I had to drink water as he pumped saline into the band to determine when it was tight enough. How is that determined? Based on how much liquid I can take in at what rate. I’ve gone from gulping down my water and protein shakes back to having to sip them like in the beginning; which is what you want. Then, I had to lay back down and then he pulled the needle out. That sensation is unlike anything I have ever experienced. The best visual I can give is imagine sticking a needle into a cork to it’s hilt…one of those dense type from a champagne bottle and then pull it out.
Also at yesterday’s appointment, we addressed my scars. I have 6 of them. I think the biggest on is about 15cm but they are all hypertrophic. Because of that, the doctor is treating them with triamcinolone. He injected it into each one of the scars in several places. It was…uncomfortable. He said with scars the size of mine, it would take about 3 treatments so I will get injections when I go back next month and then again after that.
OK, that’s all for now. I’ll be back for next weeks weigh-in.
This is the face of a woman who is down another -3.6lbs. Whoot!! Whoot!!
This was a hard week. Because I take a large dosage of iron daily and because my diet is now very high protein, constipation is an issue. I had to take a day off this week because of it but all systems are working properly again…for now.
Also, I found myself craving food this week. Let me classify that. The size of my stomach allows me to get full on about an ounce of food so I am never really hungry. In fact, I have a hard time most days getting in the required protein shakes and water. Let me give you an example…
Example 1: Long hard day at work. You want to call up your friends and meet at the local watering hole for libations and appetizers. Denied!! It’s not that I will never be able to do that again but I can’t do that now.
Example 2: Date Night!!! What used to be dinner and movie isn’t the same when you are on a liquid diet.
Example 3: Your friend/family member comes to visit after having been gone for a while. Let’s go out to eat and have some drinks. Denied!!
I could go on and on. What I’m saying when I say I ‘craved’ food is more about the mental side of this journey. So many of our social interactions center around food and beverages. It is going to be a process to learn how to be social without the part that includes shoveling food into my face indiscriminately. I will have to meet for girl talk without the high-calorie coffee drink and pastry.
It’s all a process and I am rebooting my relationship with food, with people and with life. Just taking things one day at a time.
It has been about 3 months since my last post. I’ve had a lot going on and had to take a break. Now that I have a minute, I thought i would share where I am on the journey to my Lap-Band surgery.
Here is a recap…
In order for the insurance to consider coverage of the procedure, I had to do six, consecutive months of appointments; each month had to include at least one visit with my primary care doctor and one visit with a medical nutritionist. Then, I had a ton (only a slight exaggeration) of pre-surgery testing to get done. I had to get an upper GI, abdominal xray, abdominal ultrasound, PFT, chest xray, EKG, Echo and extensive labs. I also had to have a mental health assessment and ended up having to have a sleep study because I sleep with a CPAP machine and it had been 10yrs since my last evaluation. I had my last test on May 30th.
Now, I am playing the waiting game. I am waiting for the last portion of records to be sent to the surgeons office so they can submit to the insurance for authorization. I am an active waiter though because I call the hold outs every other day and I will until it is sent. After the insurance authorization is received, we can set a date. My plan was to be able to have the surgery this month for my 40th birthday but it looks like it’s going to be in July. Not the way I planned it but still OK. I am getting anxious though.
So, that is where we are as it pertains to the surgery. I have decided that I am going to live stream some of my pre/post surgery time and also do a few vlog entries so stay tuned…
It’s been a while since I posted or even felt like it. Life was happening around me but at some point, I stopped participating. I don’t mean to sound dramatic like I was going to end it all or anything like that. Never that. I just stopped. I got up every day but hardly ever got dressed. I just hung around in my lounging gear (yoga pants and a T-shirt) and napped the day away. And forget personal grooming like eyebrows and shaving and makeup. Too much work. I left the house but only so my wife didn’t worry. I can’t say I was feeling bad; or feeling anything for that matter.I woke up one day and realized that I hadn’t been taking my meds or anything. I just…fell off. I gained back 20lbs of the weight I lost because I had pretty much given up on my Ideal Protein program as well. Even though I was weighing in and buying food every week. I woke up and ‘snapped’ out of the stupor I had been walking around in, dusted myself off and started the journey back to me.
First thing I did was go get my hair done. Then, I got my eyebrows waxed and got a mani/pedi. I started working again, at a job I really like, so I’m getting up every day and even ‘putting on a face’. Sometimes I don’t just because I want to sleep longer but I do more often then not.
Next, I made appointments with my medical and mental health providers to discuss and refill my meds. Idownloaded a phone app so I could enter my meds and track when I’m supposed to take my meds.
Then, I talked with my Ideal Protein coach, set a few short term goals and came up with a plan to get back on track with my weight loss plan. I am already feeling better and I am ready for the world. I’m not deluded that this is going to be easy but I’m open to the journey so here I go.
-4.1lbs to be exact! I’m back on track and back to losing weight. I had to regroup and get my mind right. I was feeling bored and deprived and I just needed a break.
Each week when I would go for my weigh-in and show a gain, I felt embarrassed and disappointed in myself. I knew, however, that if I stopped going altogether, even for just a couple of weeks, I would never go back.
I am definitely not anywhere close to my goal but I am on my way. I’m not happy with my outer appearance but on the inside, I feel better than I have in years. Some days are harder than others but I just surround myself with affirmations and positivity and smile on the outside even if I don’t necessarily feel it at the time.
One of our granddaughters is staying with us this week and on Easter, she wanted to take a picture of her grannies. She’s always telling me that she loves my outfits and shoes, my hair and accessories. Hanging with her is good for my self esteem.
I’m very insecure about my physical appearance so I usually don’t do full body photos but I felt good sharing this one. I was surrounded by my loved ones. My wife has been my biggest cheerleader through this process and most importantly, she loves me without condition; even when I feel I am unable to love myself.
“Effort only fully releases its reward after a person refuses to quit.” Napoleon Hill
I took this selfie the other day while st my Ideal Protein weigh-in/ coaching appointment.
Its been a tough couple of weeks and my coach, Eva, and I have been working on getting me over this plateau I’ve hit. Honestly, I got a little bored. I was tired of eating the same shit! Eva explained that even though I was having gains of a few pounds (from cheating), it is important to keep sticking to the plan and keep coming to my weekly appointments. We remixed my menu a bit and got Tomi back on board and I think I am headed in the right direction again. Most importantly, no matter how tempted I was, I didn’t quit.