I know! I know! I’m so punny! LOL!!
Seriously though, I could not be more excited to share with you. We were on vacation in California last week. Friday morning, I missed a call from my surgeons office. I checked my voicemail and called right back thinking there was yet another hang up. The insurance coordinator said “We got you approved for your surgery. I can give you some dates for your pre-surgery and surgery to consider”. I dropped the phone. I picked it back up really quickly and grabbed my calendar. She said “You can call me back if you need to check the dates and coordinate with your work schedule”. I assured her that would not be necessary and that I am not waiting any longer than I have to.
So, here it is…I have pre-surgery education that lasts all day on 7/20 and then my surgery is scheduled for 7/29. LESS THAN A MONTH AWAY!!! I am excited and nervous but most importantly, I’m ready.
Don’t worry, I wouldn’t bring you along to this point in the journey and just leave you hanging. I will make sure to keep you all updated every step of the way up to the surgery and post-surgery.
I’m so happy and excited that I could burst!!!
After my first week back on Weight Watchers, I fell off. I got a bit freaked out by my level of success if you can believe that. I didn’t start eating all crazy or anything, I just fell off on my tracking and working out. I gained a pound the next week. Then, I got sick which caused me to stop working out at all. Then, I fell off on good habits like eating breakfast everyday and planning healthy snacks and lunches. I gained 4lbs that week.
I joined the Stuffing Smackdown Challenge at work. It’s a.challenge that is supposed to discourage overeating during the holiday season. You weigh in each week and are entered into a drawing each week that you maintain or lose weight. After the first week, I was down 2lbs. This caused me to get a bit over-confident…the next week, I gained 5lbs. I freaked out a bit. I came home, ate my feelings and then got over it. This was my first week back to following my Weight Watchers plan properly. I am down 7.8lbs this week!
I’m going to keep on keeping on. I am just 10lbs away from my first weigh loss goal which is 5% of my starting weight. My reward for my first goal will be a 60-minute deep tissue massage. Plus, for every pound I lose, a dollar goes into my ‘New Wardrobe Fund’ for replacing clothing items as I lose weight.
It wasn’t until we went on our honeymoon that I was truly faced with how fat I’ve gotten. Everyone wants to throw ‘curvy’ around, which I am, but I am fat. Period. There was not one aspect of the travel experience that wasn’t miserable for me. I think squeezing my bulk into the plane seats was the worst by far. I had bruises in my hip from the 12 total hours that the seat parts pressed into my flesh. Then, there was the walking, huffing and sweating my way through the airports. I don’t want this to be my life anymore.
The first thing I did when we got home is make a doctor appointment. I found out that my thyroid numbers are out of control, which is affecting my success when it comes to my weight loss attempts. Then, I joined Weight Watchers. I need help! I need a lifestyle change. I went to my first meeting this past Saturday and I cried when I read the number of my first weigh-in. Then, I said a small prayer and resolved to see that number go down and my health improve. I am tired…of being fat, unhealthy, self-conscious. I am tired of feeling like a failure every time I try and fail to lose weight. But I know that when I fall, as long as I get up and start again, I am NOT a failure. I truly feel like I am fighting for my life.
Tomi said that she is going to nag me about logging my points and getting my workout in. She said she will do whatever she has to in order to help me succeed.
I am ready to be completely transparent; no filter. This is me. I am 37 years old. I am 6’0″ tall. At my first Weight Watchers meeting on Saturday, September 26th, 2013 , I weighed in at 455.2lbs. I am embarrassed to put myself out here like this. I am feeling very vulnerable and raw but most importantly, I feel ready.