I am down -.2lbs this week!! Yes, you read that right. I am going to celebrate it because it is my ‘cycle’ week and I am a bloated, emotional mess and I need a reason to celebrate. In all seriousness, I usually gain 3-5lbs during my lady time to fact that I had any loss at all makes me want to shout from the mountain tops.
For those of you keeping track, it is day 5 of my beverage cleanse. I have not had any caffeine withdrawal headaches like I thought I would so that’s a plus. One thing that this is helping me realize is that I really like coffee…and wine. Also, I miss how comforting it is to have a warm tasty beverage when you’re not feeling well or when you want to relax at the end of a long day. 5 more days to go and then I will give the run-down of my whole experience.
This past Thursday, I had my monthly appointment with Dr. Fox. I am down 7lbs for the month. I opted not to get a ‘fill’ because I seem to be doing well. He gave me a prescription for phentermine. It will help with my appetite thereby boosting my weight loss numbers and give me more energy. I did my regular Friday weigh-in and found I was down 3lbs for the week. That made me happy because I had no weight loss the previous week.
The energy boost will come in handy because I will be off caffeine, at least for the next 10 days. I read an article yesterday on MindBodyGreen by a woman who drank only water for 10 days. A beverage cleanse; it is effectively a tastebud cleanse. She said, she experienced food and non-water beverages differently after the cleanse. Plus, there were skin and body benefits. I love a good challenge and I can definitely stand to drink more water. I start tomorrow. Cheers!
Last week, I took on the challenge of not complaining; about anything. Some days were definitely easier than others but I made it. It took a concentrated effort in some cases and made for what seemed to be a longer week than usual.
I’m going to do it again this week. We’ll see how it goes.
Two weeks ago, I had my monthly appointment with my surgeon and I express to him my concern over the fact that I have not had any weight loss for a month. His response was not to admonish me but simply to say that my plateau may not be my fault. It could just be a matter of needing to tighten the band more than we had in the past. So that’s what we did. in the two weeks since then I am down 8 pounds. It has been an adjustment because I’m able to eat even less than I was used to eating because my pouch filled up even more quickly.
Slowly but surely, I’m learning what I can and can’t tolerate with the pouch. Whole grains (brown rice, quinoa, millet), cheese, yogurt (Carbmaster), cottage cheese, eggs, fish, veggies, apple sauce, soups; most of what sustains me. Also, I drink 2 Premier Protein shakes a day. Most importantly, I chew everything thoroughly so big chunks don’t get stuck and I eat slowly so my body can register being full. An over full pouch is EXTREMELY uncomfortable. I also learned that I am allergic to MCT Oil. My wife uses it in smoothies for long-acting energy. We added some to our protein shakes and it made my mouth and face numb and tingly and I was sick and vomiting all day.
My body has changed in a lot of ways but my face is where I see the most significant change as it pertains to my weight loss.The pic on the left is from when I was close to my heaviest and on the right is last week at work. 👀
I’ll leave you with this; blew my mind. 5lbs of fat is equal to the weight of a standard brick…
Keeping that in mind has been let for me to put my weight loss in perspective. I have lost the equivalent of 14 bricks. 70lbs=14 bricks. Imagine carrying around 14 bricks for years. It’s crazy to think about but for the better part of 3 yrs, I had been carrying that around. My goal is to lose 26 more bricks.
I’m feeling stuck…again. My weight this week was exactly the same as last week. That was a little deflating but I’ll take that over having a gain. I’m going to have to be more consistent about hitting the gym and eat way more veggies and a few less carbs.
This weekend, I posted a pic of me in my Mickey Mouse leggings. Two body shots in as many weeks? I’m feeling myself! I love them and felt like I look ok in them. It’s an extremely vulnerable place to be in for me, sharing myself. I find that in my vulnerability, there is strength. Luckily, I have an amazing support system which helps when I need a bit of shoring up.
I got to visit my home town this weekend. I got to see my parents and our youngest daughter (She just turned 26 on 1/23). I miss them so much so it also makes me feel ‘full’ to see them and be around them.
I also got to see cousins and countless others I have known my entire life who’ve become ‘family’. I’m glad we have our life in the the Tri-Cities and for all the ‘framily’ (friends that are like family) we’ve gained over the past 12yrs but there’s no place like home.
I have to admit that yesterday morning, I was feeling some kind of way after climbing on the scale. I did not have any weight loss this week. I mean, I was sad and wanted to go climb back in my bed.
Then, I gave myself a swift kick in the butt (mentally) and decided to focus on non-scale victories. I have lost 70lbs!! and while I didn’t have any weight loss this week, I also did not have any weight gain. Not even an ounce. I managed to shake it off. I put on my Miss Piggy t-shirt (because she’s fab and I am fab) and some cute jeans and a cute hat and came to work. Did I mention that the T-shirt is 6 sizes smaller than it would’ve been 6 months ago? Oh, and the jeans are 4 sizes smaller? I had my co-worker take a full-body pic (which I hate) so I could look at myself.I can see some differences.
This has been a really hard couple of weeks for me. The weather here has been less than desirable with 23 inches of snow and then a freak ice storem that left it so that people were able to ice skate in the streets. I have barely been able to get to work and after work, all I want to do is go home.
My plan for this week is to take my butt to the gym whether I feel like it or not. Getting active consistently is the one piece missing from my weight loss puzzle. If I can’t get to the gym then I am going to find a workout on Netflix, Hulu or YouTube and do that. It’s hard for me because I hate the idea of exercise but I am committed to changing my attitude. I’ve just got to do it. No excuses!
Well, it only took me half of the month to catch up on life enough to complete my first blog post of the year. So much for starting the year with a consistent weekly post. Sheesh!! Anyway, let me get you all caught up on the life and times of me.
I brought in the new year with my honey and some friends and doing what I love to do…singing. We went originally to watch the show and Micah and Cat invited me up to join them on a couple of numbers. It was a blast!! Good company, good wine, good food and great memories.
As of last Friday (my weigh-in day), I am down 70lbs since this whole weight loss thing started (down 4lbs for the week). Physically, I feel fantastic. I can move around without pain and without getting winded. I had been on muscle relaxers for chronic back pain for years and I haven’t taken them since surgery day. I can climb up and down the stairs in my house without having to climb on hands and knees like a toddler. My wife and I can go on walks with the dogs. We can go out dancing and instead of just part of a song, I dance through several songs and only have to sit down because a song comes on that I don’t like. I am enjoying the new found freedom that losing weight has afforded me.
I do have to say that extreme weight loss is a blessing and a curse. It has been a mental test getting use to my body as it changes. There are parts of me that hang that didn’t use to. My skin feels different to me, my clothes fit differently. My skin is changing, my hair is changing. It’s definitely interesting getting to know myself all over again. I don’t always like how I look with or without clothes. Some days are definitely better than others but I am learning and coping as I go.
I’m learning a few things…
Working out needs to be a priority. It helps you have more effective weight loss and helps you to gain muscle while you are losing weight. I’m getting more consistent with workouts but it is still my least favorite thing to do.
It is super important to take care of yourself mentally. Make time to pray, meditate, journal and pamper yourself. All the change is a lot mentally so you do not want to neglect your self-care; whatever that looks like for you.
Get use to never eating a hot meal again. That sounds weird but I honestly have not had a hot meal since I had surgery. The reality is that you just can’t eat it fast enough. The one thing this surgery forces you to do is slow down. You have to chew more because you don’t want to swallow big chunks (even of soft food). Believe it or not, you will get use to it.
Surround yourself with positive people who want to see you succeed. They don’t have to be on a weight loss journey (although you should have a few of those people in your life). Just make sure that they are not the people who are constantly offering you all the junk food and starchy goodness. Make sure they are people who are willing to listen to the occasional rant about ill-fitting clothing and a not-so-delicious new food. Most importanly, they need to be good cheerleaders who are willing to encrourage and slap that muffin out of your hand if need be. Someone willing to go on a walk with you and your dogs or offer alternatives for getting together other than eating and drinking (crafting dates, walking dates, mani/pedi dates).
Now, we are all caught up and ready to get back to our regularly scheduled program. I will be back on Friday with my weekly weigh-in
It’s been about a month since my last post because…life. I’m still here and still doing well. I had my monthly appointment with my surgeon last Thursday and I am down -11lbs for the month. For those keeping track, I’m down -64lbs since I first began this endeavor which was just about a year ago. I am down -34lbs since my surgery (July 29th).
I’ve got a long way to go. Unlike a gastric bypass, which gives you big loss numbers right away, the adjustable gastric band is a more slow and steady process.
I’m feeling really good. I’m having toreplace some clothing items because old stuff is just too big at this point. I am training my mind to not just automatically go forthe largest size because it won’t fit because it’s too big. It feels good to be able to say that a clothing item is too big. I don’t think I’ve ever been in that space in my entire adult life. I’ve had a couple of breakdowns because I am struggling with some of my body changes. I’ve always been big but I was solid. Now, I have jiggly parts that I didn’t have before and hanging parts. It’s all a big adjustment. Overall, I’m a lot more comfortable in my skin. I have to be honest; I wouldn’t change a thing.
Non-scale victory…we went to a concert last month at the Emerald Queen Casino; Musiq Soulchild. He is one of my favorite soul/ R&B singers. Not only did I navigate through the whole casino to get to the venue. I was able to stand and dance the night away. We had an absolute blast! 6 months ago, I would have never been able to do that. I would’ve had to stop to rest several times and sat through the concert.