-4.1lbs to be exact! I’m back on track and back to losing weight. I had to regroup and get my mind right. I was feeling bored and deprived and I just needed a break.
Each week when I would go for my weigh-in and show a gain, I felt embarrassed and disappointed in myself. I knew, however, that if I stopped going altogether, even for just a couple of weeks, I would never go back.
I am definitely not anywhere close to my goal but I am on my way. I’m not happy with my outer appearance but on the inside, I feel better than I have in years. Some days are harder than others but I just surround myself with affirmations and positivity and smile on the outside even if I don’t necessarily feel it at the time.
One of our granddaughters is staying with us this week and on Easter, she wanted to take a picture of her grannies. She’s always telling me that she loves my outfits and shoes, my hair and accessories. Hanging with her is good for my self esteem.
I’m very insecure about my physical appearance so I usually don’t do full body photos but I felt good sharing this one. I was surrounded by my loved ones. My wife has been my biggest cheerleader through this process and most importantly, she loves me without condition; even when I feel I am unable to love myself.