Hotmess.org.com.life

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Please don’t go typing that in because it is not an actual website; I think.

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Instead, think of it as a very accurate description of my current mental, emotional and physical state. My stress level is HIGH!!

I am having a couple of eye surgeries; the first of which is coming up next month. I have to be honest and say that I am freaking out just a little

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I have an eye disease called Keratoconus which has gotten progressively worse and has started to affect my vision and the ability to correct my vision with contacts or glasses. I am legally blind in the left eye and that will require a corneal transplant which I will be having around the end of summer. The procedure that I am having next month is called Corneal CrossLinking. I am having it all done at a clinic in Walla Walla, WA which is about an hour away from home and I am having to take a bunch of time off of work. Needless to say, my anxiety and stress level is HIGH.

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My hair is falling out, my skin is a mess, I keep breaking out in hives, I can’t concentrate and all I want to do is sleep and eat. Speaking of eating…

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At the beginning of this weight loss adventure, I promised myself that I would be completely transparent; no filter. That being said, I haven’t been following my program properly for the last two weeks. I haven’t been eating the right things, I haven’t been taking my supplements, I haven’t been logging my meals, drinking water like I am supposed to; just not doing anything I am supposed to. I usually start the day well and then by lunch, I get lazy and just eat whatever and then I think “I’ve ruined this day already so I may as well eat whatever I want for dinner”. It’s been a nasty cycle over the past couple of weeks. It also didn’t help that we went out of town two weekends in a row. I didn’t plan ahead which made staying on plan while travelling next to impossible. Have you ever tried to find something healthy to eat in a convenience store?
TODAY I’VE DECIDED TO STOP ALLOWING LIFE TO GET IN THE WAY OF MY SUCCESS! I gave myself a little pep talk/ kick-in-butt…
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I had my weigh-in today and came clean with my coach and declared tomorrow my official relaunch day. I gained 12lbs in two weeks but didn’t gain any inches; I’m down another 1.5in.
I am striving to “Look Great At 38!”

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3 thoughts on “Hotmess.org.com.life

  1. Hey we’ve all been there, it’s so easy to fall into that trap of “the day’s ruined”, “the week’s ruined”, and inevitably, “I give up”. Just remember, if you give up now in a year’s time you’ll wish you’d just kept on going. Everyone makes these stuff-ups, the important thing is to get back up and keep going. I believe in you! If you think you can, you can. 🙂

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